I can remember a few, but not all of them. If there were any I forgot, oops. XP But off the top of my head, here’s a few!
~One of them was actually written. It was going to be the original scene for Fluttershy’s confession. She sees Dr. Firebrand and realizes that what she feels for Rainbow is love. After, she goes and confesses her feelings, to which Rainbow reciprocates. The reason it was scraped was actually because at the time we wrote it, it was very early on in the story proper. We were going to build up to it, but as the progress went on, it all changed and what we got instead was the confession scene you see in the story. Hey, it happens! It was still a good effort, but what we got turned out a lot better. :)
~Another was one I had. XP Ever since the idea that Fluttershy’s parents were emotionally abusive (which explains why she’s so shy and has insecurities about herself and her confidence), I wanted her to confront them. I pitched an idea to Bhaalspawn, where she takes them to the mental hospital while visiting Rainbow there, and just goes all out. He thought the idea was way too much and ridiculous. I eventually agreed and so it was scraped. XP Oh well! We evenutally did write a confrontation scene, and it was glorious. It turned out so much better.
~Another one was actually going to be both Ascentia and Twilight’s scene together in the last chapter (not the epilogue), and also the ending to their arc. It was going to have Twilight snapping and then…beating Ascentia. Yeah. XP It got scraped because we couldn’t write it. As we were writing the scene, it just kind of hit us that we would have to do it graphically. Throughout Stockholm, the domestic abuse and rape all happened off-screen, mentioned only in dialogue and narration. We just didn’t have it in us to do it and we couldn’t get Twilight angry enough to snap. It was going to end with her ending up in the mental hospital, writing a letter to Princess Celestia, and then getting a mysterious visitor. Yeah… I’m glad it ended the way we have it now. :P I think it worked a lot better!
~Okay, this other one was for a shot we currently haven’t released yet. Without going into too much details, it involved the CMC and it was so awful. I would read all of my original fanfics from ten years ago than ever write or read that again! I didn’t just hate how the scene became, I felt physically uncomfortable reading it and writing it. It wasn’t just uncomfortable, it was painful. All throughout Stockholm, the worst I ever felt was sad. Now sad, I can handle that perfectly fine. Even the descriptions of the domestic abuse, while unnerving, weren’t graphically written and didn’t affect me that badly. Yes, Ascentia terrified me in the story, but I can also handle fear. But physical discomfort from writing/reading something so terribly uncomfortable and painful? No way. I was, honestly, on the verge of TEARS. Thankfully, Bhaalspawn understood and offered that we make it less…like that. It turned out so much better after that. I am forever thankful for his compassion and letting us re-do that scene. <3
~Another was actually something requested of us to do. The aftermath of Twilight’s rape of Ascentia and the entire forgiveness element. Now, the scene itself that the reader had in mind wasn’t a bad idea. I liked it, I would have been more than happy to do it, and it would’ve been easy for me.
However, it was the stuff needed to lead up to it. The actual rape scene, graphically done. I… just said one big “NOPE!” and outright refused to do it. No, he didn’t force me or anything like that, he even told the reader he was not making any promises. I’m thankful he understood where I was coming from and didn’t push me on it, even admitting he couldn’t do it, either. The thing is, I can’t write rape scenes. I knew it would have made me pained and uncomfortable, beyond that.
It was also sometime after we’d written the aforementioned scene. Rape didn’t even take place in that scene and I felt completely uncomfortable and pained. What makes you think I would’ve been able to handle malicious rape? Especially between characters I liked? Especially with a pairing I liked? You may as well have asked me to write Rainbow raping Fluttershy. So, no way. We didn’t do it. The same reason we couldn’t have Twilight graphically beating Ascentia, we weren’t able to bring ourselves to do it.
So, that’s about it! Some ideas didn’t work out, but that’s okay. It happens! :P It’s all a big learning experience, you know? And it all worked out in the end, so I don’t regret them. Even the uncomfortable scene helped me realize my own limits. So really, nothing was pointless and it still helped us get to where we are today. ^w^ I’m glad for that, if nothing else. :3